Just Ask and You Shall Receive

and you wonder…..

you wonder why i hate my life

you always tell me i have it good

well is it really good to have fake friends

to have people leave you out all the time

to be the kid that is just there

and is like a last resort friend

im the one that you could care less about

im the one that seems forgotten about

and you watch over the summer i will be alone

no one will call me to hang out

no one will even care what happens

i will just be left to my own thoughts

to torture me with thoughts about the people i thought i knew

Her name is written on the side

keeping me up all night yea thats what you do

its ok cause i think i love you

right you are about everything

so stay awhile and try not to leave me

to be honest your the best thing thats happend in awhile

even your smile can light up my world

now i just wish you felt the same

Girl <3

Girl when i look in to your eyes
girl when i see you smile
girl when ever your around me

you make me alll
butterflys in my stomache
smile that never fades
thoughts of you and me that seem to go on forever

girl when i see you in the hall
girl when i see you looking at me
girl when you bat those eyes

its makes me oh so weak inside
and i just can’t hide it much longer
i gotta let you know

so girl i wanna hold you
girl i wanna be with you
girl your my one and only
girl that ill always love

What does she want <3

wakeing up

getting dressed

trying to look good just for her

cause she is the one i like

but the problem is i don’t know

know what people look for now days

some looke for muscle or power

while some look for cute and sweet

but thats the problem i don’t fit

fit into any catagory

i am me and thats all there is to it

but me wants her and would give anything

just to be with her and hold her

be able to kiss her  and hold her in my arms

to tell her that she is my one and only

my anything and everything

the thing that keeps me awake at night wondering about her

making me smile everytime i see her

and when im feeling down she brings me right back up

so i guess what im trying to say is 

i wish i knew what she wanted cause i would be it just for her

maybe i will?

maybe i will do what you say

and disappear from your world

maybe i will crawl into a whole and go die

cause really we loose people all the time and

and what me just disappearing really do

it wouldn’t cause much pain to many people

not many would actually cry

and i mean me sticking around is doing much either

i just seem to confuse people and hurt them

so if i was gone i wouldn’t be able to cause trouble or fail classes

or let people down

and life it doesn’t much for me cause everything i try to do i fail at

there is nothing i can do that is amazing and my life just seems to be useless

or maybe i should just disappear and start a life somewhere else

and make friends and maybe find a girl

but then i would end up screwing up there lifes to so then i would have to go again

i would just keep moving around like a child with foster parents just looking friends and family he won’t end up screwing in the end

maybe i will find that day

and maybe i won’t

The Toy

The toy walked the world being played with

and then throwen out

but ever thought that a toy could want love to

to just be held by one person that he could say i love you to

to be able to say that he is loved and he loves

to say that she is the true one and only

the one that completes his entire life

making him the luckiest man in his own mind

cause he has her and she has him

a love that will last till the end

and even though his past was bad

she would love him and never be sad

cause thats wat love is all about

and is found rarely but when it is found

its the greastest treasure any man could ever have

something for today

Forever With the Girl

There was a boy

Who met a girl

Who said she love

Everything about him

So they said

They’d make a plan

To stay together

For eternity

Nothing

Could break their bound

Like turtle doves

They stayed together

Forever

But like all good things

It has to come to an end

So when the time came

The girl died and the boy

Walked world alone

wishing and wanting to only be with her.

As the years went by

He waited for his time

ehhh idk if i like

just need a smile

ill put it on your face

just need some loving

and ill give you all of mine

tell me your falling

and ill always be there catch you

cause baby

i love you

so let me in and don’t let go

ill be yours and youll be mine

never fear ill keep you near

safe inside my heart

need a friend

ill be there till the end

just need to talk

ill always be there to listin in

tell me your problems

and ill work them all out

cause girl

so let me in and don’t let go

ill be yours and youll be mine

never fear ill keep you near

safe inside my heart

like a ghost i walk the world

not being seen and barley being heard

trying to find someone else like me

but failing every time i try

and the wound just gets bigger and bigger

opening the gap in my heart even more

tearing it open till it nothing more than a few scraps left for the crows

and all the while i walk around acting like its all ok

trying to make myself believe that im ok and that im gonna make it

but latley nothing has really mattered anymore

school is just another place to be scorned and yelled at

while home is just a place to eat and sleep

and my room the place to sit in dispeir think about her and them

and just trying to make sense of anything but it never seems to work right

cause when i do i create more wounds that where deeper then the last

and so by the end of the day there is nothing left but a soul

a soul that just loved but was never loved

 a soul that just want but was never wanted back

crying in the dark in a cold corrner

the ghost inside cries knowing that the outside is all an act

a cherade that nobody sees through

but its not like it matterd who would want to see me anyway